I am amazed to what lengths I go to maintain a self-image that 

“I know” – 

-when in fact I KNOW I have no clue! LOL! 

I can just see the eyes of females rolling back into their heads at my past attempts at trying to explain something! 

On Sunday, I attended a concert with Elizabeth at Kirstenbosch Gardens, a beautiful outdoor venue in Cape Town. As we were sitting on our picnic blanket waiting for some friends and for the concert to start, I was unconsciously puffing on my electronic cigarette. A female marshal appeared and asked me to please stop smoking. I politely said that I would and turned back to continue the conversation with Elizabeth. 

Elizabeth then asked why it is that I can’t smoke my electronic cigarette in the concert area. I was stumped. I had no answer. 

As I stammered and stuttered out what was likely to be a long explanation, which went something like: 

“ um … because they have bla bla … “

E asked “Who is they?”

Again I had no idea but jokingly managed to say, “They, you know …. Them!” 

I was amazed to what lengths I go to maintain a self-image that “I know” - -when in fact I KNOW I have no clue! LOL! 

I can just see the eyes of females rolling back into their heads at my past attempts at trying to explain something! 

What I found in working with this further is that my sense of self worth is tied up in what I think I know and hence the difficulty in simply saying, “I don’t know”. 

From a Toltec perspective, the true meaning of the myth 

“Men must be educated” 

Is

“Men must have knowledge.”

Knowledge is defined as having practical experience on the physical plane.  

I have now also connected with my urge to explore while working with this myth, and I have found myself more consciously differentiating between what I do know and what I do not know. 

Doing this has helped me be more present. Also having a sense for what I do not know also serves as a starting point and lends a mood of fun and adventure to the exploration.

With warm regards,
Dylan